where did the year go? (aka. march - september recap)

It’s been a Year. It needs capitalisation because it has been intense.

I started this little recap back in March. It’s been saved in my drafts since then…why?

Well, I could say I’ve been too busy (somewhat true).

I could say I’ve been depressed (definitely true), uninspired (also very true).

Melbourne, 2019

Melbourne, 2019

That did not go according to plan! Instead, I woke up on the second morning to the news that our apartment had been broken into. My poor wife was home at the time (which is horrifying) and her handbag was stolen.

Balloon spectacular earlier in 2019

Balloon spectacular earlier in 2019

Really, it’s all just excuses. Let’s ignore them, grab a cup of tea, and chat.

Where to begin? I guess, the beginning.

So early March I toddled off to Melbourne for what was supposed to be two days of a conference and then a flight back to Sydney on the Friday evening for an Arctic Monkeys concert.

We didn’t make it to the Arctic Monkeys, but we did make it to Groovin’ the Moo

We didn’t make it to the Arctic Monkeys, but we did make it to Groovin’ the Moo

In a lot of ways, we were lucky.

New Zealand

New Zealand

I have a lot of expensive tech stuff, and it was all with me on the trip.

But then started our war with our landlords about who would pay for what and all of a sudden we were two weeks away from our New Zealand holiday and we had to leave our apartment as our lease wasn’t going to be renewed. This was a blessing and a curse - our real estate agents were terrible (Canberra people - stay away from En Vogue Property management!) and we were glad to leave - but it wasn’t expected and it was absolutely terrible timing.

More New Zealand

More New Zealand

At the same time, I was feeling terrible about my work situation for a number of reasons, and it was such a bad combination of unhappy things. In May, we finally jetted off to New Zealand for our little two week adventure, and it was wonderful. Liz did a fantastic job of planning our itinerary and I enjoyed it a lot. I’m not going to lie though, there were some bad days. My mental health was pretty terrible, I was still battling to get a PCOS diagnosis, and there were days of the holiday when I was not a fun person to be around (sorry, Liz!). But I’ll make a separate post (or maybe a zine) about that trip sometime later this year.

The cats did not love the moving process - they did enjoy the boxes, though.

The cats did not love the moving process - they did enjoy the boxes, though.

Eventually we found a new apartment, and we’ve been slowly settling in. The months since May have flown by - we’ve had birthdays, anniversaries (3 years married!), trips to Melbourne and Shepparton, weddings, hen dos, Splendour in the Grass, and many things I’m probably forgetting.

Byron Bay for Splendour in the Grass, 2019

Byron Bay for Splendour in the Grass, 2019

Now, our main priorities are gearing up for my sister-in-law’s wedding in October, putting the finishing touches on our new apartment in Kingston (we love it) and …drumroll, please… I start a new job in just a few short days!

As I am writing this, I have two days left at my current job, and I start a new community service-based position on 30 September. I cannot wait, I’m so ready for new challenges, new people and new environments. I’ve been at my current job for nearly 5 years, and so for me it was definitely time to move on, do something different, try and change the world a bit for the better. I can’t wait.

So…you’re caught up! That’s been March - September. Where did it go? Who knows.

But for now, I can’t wait to show you my latest model shoot, some of the school work I’ve been doing, and our new little apartment!

Bye for now x

If I don’t finish with a picture of a cat, what is even the point?

If I don’t finish with a picture of a cat, what is even the point?

media & documentary | process blog #1

It’s been a little while since I posted about my photography studies. I’ve been taking some time out (I’m changing jobs at the end of this week, so that’s been a major change). This Trimester, I am taking a Media and Documentary photography class. This is an area of photography I don’t know all that well, but I’m very interested in. I have certainly enjoyed the class materials so far!

This week, we have to present two ideas for our main project, a photo essay. I am thinking of two quite different projects. The first is a focus on queer Australia, what it looks like to be young and belong to the LGBTQIA+ community in in Canberra in 2019. I’m a queer woman myself, and so this is of course of great interest to me. Canberra has a very vibrant queer community so I think I would have a lot of possible subjects for this particular essay, however the thing that is holding me back the most is the social interaction required - it would make me very anxious, and it would also rely on finding subjects and them actually showing up to a shoot.

The second idea is to focus on the role of the library in 2019. My wife is a librarian, so this is also a very relevant subject for me. I like the idea of re-imagining the traditional view of the library as a stuffy, boring, academic space which is exclusive and instead focus on the community-building, lively, safe spaces that they really are for a lot of the community. Since my wife started working at the National Library, I have spent a lot of my study time in their reading rooms, or in local public libraries. I have come to learn how important they are to many people and what an undervalued resource they are.

Overall, I am leaning towards my second option. I think overall it would be more practical in the time given, and it would also be a subject I could expand upon later. Queer issues have been all over the media lately and I am concerned that I wouldn’t necessarily have anything new to say in that space. I think the library option gives me more room to be creative and say something with my work!

What do you think?

new years pressures

new years pressures

Every year, we think we’ll be different in the next.

And in some ways, we are. New jobs, new life experiences, new travel, new family members - they all change us, make us better, sometimes make us worse, versions of ourselves. I’ve been guilty, ever year to date, of thinking “next year will be different”.

In 20XX, I will… lose weight, be more productive, nap less, drink less Coke…

You name it, I’ve made it a resolution.

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